Comments on: What If They Never Saw You Cry? http://www.as4me.net/2009/09/15/what-if-they-never-saw-you-cry/ Thinking through the process of finding wisdom. Thu, 02 Feb 2012 17:15:14 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.1 By: Diane Heeney http://www.as4me.net/2009/09/15/what-if-they-never-saw-you-cry/comment-page-1/#comment-1576 Diane Heeney Thu, 17 Sep 2009 18:39:03 +0000 http://www.as4me.net/?p=1805#comment-1576 This is where I live. We just addressed this at Bible study on Monday. All the ladies in my study group prayed over me, with our pastor, for healing and strength. It was sweet... and humbling. It lent itself afterward to a discussion regarding coping mechanisms, and how candid a mom should be...how transparent? How will my kids learn to face trials if they don't see a godly solution in me? I know how difficult that can be. Under a continual barrage of weakness and pain, I fight depression and want escape. I've tried in the past to squirrel away my struggling self in a dark room. Reading scripture, good spiritually edifying books, listening to sermons and uplifting music sometimes are not my knee-jerk reaction...but I have seen baby steps of improvement. :) My last migraine/joint pain/fatigue bout found me listening (even laughing) to C.J. Mahaney in the recliner...that, praise God, is what my daughter witnessed. No more cowering under the pressure of pain, but a spirit reaching out and beyond myself in frailty and dependence to the One who has overcome the world. That's what my kids have to see. This is the stuff real life is made of. This is where I live. We just addressed this at Bible study on Monday. All the ladies in my study group prayed over me, with our pastor, for healing and strength. It was sweet… and humbling. It lent itself afterward to a discussion regarding coping mechanisms, and how candid a mom should be…how transparent? How will my kids learn to face trials if they don’t see a godly solution in me?

I know how difficult that can be. Under a continual barrage of weakness and pain, I fight depression and want escape. I’ve tried in the past to squirrel away my struggling self in a dark room. Reading scripture, good spiritually edifying books, listening to sermons and uplifting music sometimes are not my knee-jerk reaction…but I have seen baby steps of improvement. :) My last migraine/joint pain/fatigue bout found me listening (even laughing) to C.J. Mahaney in the recliner…that, praise God, is what my daughter witnessed. No more cowering under the pressure of pain, but a spirit reaching out and beyond myself in frailty and dependence to the One who has overcome the world. That’s what my kids have to see. This is the stuff real life is made of.

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