Today’s Wisdom Wednesday post is a guest post by Carrie Boyer, a friend of mine here in New Mexico. When she started sharing with me some of the things that God has been teaching her, I thought it might be a blessing for you to hear from her.
Lately I’ve been struggling with making some important decisions regarding our family’s future. My husband’s military commitment will be up in 1 year and we are trying to determine where to live after that. I’m very indecisive and just don’t feel a sense of peace about either option we have been discussing for quite some time. I feel frustrated because I really don’t feel like I’m getting much direction from God and am more confused the more my husband and I talk about it. It makes me wonder how much I truly trust God and if I should just let the future happen instead of trying to plan it all out. Proverbs 3:5 states, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding.” I need to remind myself that God is in control and has a plan for our lives. Psalm 47:10 states “Be still, and know that I am God.” That’s very hard for me because I’m a type-A personality and I want to know and plan out all the details. I think planning ahead for your future is responsible and beneficial, however I’ve started worrying and obsessing over it. This is wasted time and shows my lack of trust in God. Matthew 6:34 teaches I need not worry about the future. “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”
I wonder if part of the reason I’m so anxious is because I’m just not content with my current circumstances and want to ensure that wherever we live next, I will be happy. I’ve been working on my attitude for quite some time now, but still seem to focus on the past and wish for things that are long gone. At church this past weekend the pastor talked about Psalm 37:4. “Delight yourself in the Lord and He shall give you the desires of your heart.” I asked myself if I truly delight in the Lord. Honestly, my answer has been no lately. My prayer is that God please help me to change my heart and to be content wherever I live. Also, I pray not to get caught up in the world’s desires for it leaves me feeling empty and unhappy.