I know I’ve been a delinquent blogger. Partly, the momentum and discipline of blogging every day got interrupted, and I’ve been quite distracted for awhile. I spent two months in California. I had limited time I could spend with my dad (who has a terminal illness) and mom, and between the desire to spend time with my family, and the tension of living with another family (even one I love) left me with little thinking time for blogging. If I cannot think, I cannot blog.
And, I am happiest in my Christian walk when I have time to think about it. The way I think about spiritual things is often to think about thinking about spiritual things. In the education world, we call this metacognition. Eventually I get to thinking about spiritual things through the back door, but thinking about thinking is fun and profitable for me spiritually. But… I’ve not been thinking about thinking about my walk with God as it relates to parenting.
When Lee left for his six month tour overseas, it seemed that God shifted my focus from my children to my marriage. What God seemed to be challenging me with was how His Word and Character influence my relationship with my husband. Because I’ve limited my blog to children, I made the decision to wait to write.
God is still teaching me about my children. I just don’t have as much brain capital to think about it. Thinking about thinking is how I write. I’m still intending to continue chronicling my journey of God’s Working in my life as a mother. Have patience with me!
Then my metacognition gets in the way. I don’t know if I’m making sense, and I am too tired to think about it! I’d like to think that I make sense when I write. Oh, my life is a scatterbrained lot!