The other day I was angry with Bethel and I had to ask her forgiveness. I didn’t want to do it.
Part of me argued that if I asked forgiveness, then she would forget about the fact that she was in the wrong. Another part argued that it probably wouldn’t make a difference, and that she probably wouldn’t notice anyway. I think those were lies I was telling myself.
So I tried to explain that mommy was angry and that was wrong. I asked her to forgive me. She didn’t understand and tearfully repeated after me, “Will you forgive me for being angry?” I stopped and told her that mommy sinned. I asked again, and she again repeated “Will you forgive mommy for being angry?”
Finally she got it. I wonder if asking forgiveness of my children will always be this hard. It seems to remind me that I need more humility.